I know I’m a teenager- teenagers are in a wierd place in their lives, hormones coursing through their body as they struggle to differenciate their beliefs with their parents. And the whole Who am I thing is a part of that. But I never meant it to go this far. I just wanted a simple answer, like everyone else. A ‘you are a humanitarian’ would be a nice reasuring thing to tell me i was on the right path. But this? Heck no! Is this what i get for looking all the way to the bottom of the well? Am I perhaps in a little too deep? Well that would make sence, except for the fact that i am seriously different. I tried so hard to assure myself we were all the same but I guess they meant everyone but me. Or not. i don’t know! God my life is like some kind of a sick joke!

Maya have you ever thought about maybe not believing everything you hear online?

Yeah well duh I think of that constantly but let’s not forget the fact that i can see energies, can tell a good intention from a bad- and if you still say i don’t then there’s more. Indigo chat is not some teenage thing. most peole there have children or are thinking of marriage at least. There are only a few teenagers. And the ones i really trust- they were on there too. And they believe her. Gaia that crazy woman, i thank my lucky stars i’m not her. she is in quite a bit of trouble!

I will never forget what she told me- the other thing. About what was to come. My god, It sounds some good, some bad, but so unreal. Is this really my life? Or have I gotten mixed in to some horrible web of lies and deception like a foolish child? She talked of my vision too- the one i had on the rainbow child. She said it before I did. and she knew more about it than i did so part of me does believe her. And its not like im an alien, just something got transfered into my DNA. that’s normal, right? She said not human but maybe I read too much into it. I don’t know what the heck I should believe about that. I think the best thing I can do right now is to be with my normal freinds, the ones that don’t have superpowers and shit, and pretend im completely normal- completely legit. It’s the end of my time for understanding anyways- i’ll save the rest of my spiritual growth for 2012.

MLIA. People think Im crazy for saying the things I do. Only when I show them what I can do they tell me I am from another planet.

MLIA. This year I have found out I fit into the reverred lable of Star Child- I am an indigo and I am evolving into a rainbow crystal. I found out my soul is from the 9th dimension and I have come here to carry out my duty.

MLIA. I have made friends with a human angel, a wicken, two vampires and so much more. I guess when people say they have freinds in high places I know what they’re talking about.

MLIA. When I met Netil, a boy who can see the 12th dimensional frequency and a master of the brain and DNA, he  told me that having two natal charts was simply a polarity issue, he showed me a technique using the most powerful secret knowledge known to humankind. Though it revealed to me my path in life, my angel reached out to me, (and activated secrets in my DNA so that when I walked by all electrical devices went out,) it did nothing to help my polarity. I told him even my rising sign was wrong- physically impossible. Last night, I found out why.

MLIA. Last night I met a woman named Gaia on  the indigo chat. I could tell from the first second her energy was different. I asked her what she could do but she did not answer. So I pm’d her and finnally she told me what she was.

MLIA. The woman i was talking to was the most paranormal person on the chat. Her differences were more… promminent than any other. She told me she was going to make me vibrate and did so with my consent. It was to protect me in space-time. She told me she was in hiding- it was her choice.

MLIA. Gaia is a hybrid. Her abilities are beyond the genetic code. Her parents are one from here, the other an outsider. She told me she had ignored me at first because i was not like the others. She would talk to me in private. I told her about my polarity and asked her what she meant by different. And this is what she told me:

MLIA. My rising sign was not wrong due to a polarity disorder. It could not be fixed because I was perfect. The reason why I have a cancer rising is because I am not physically human. When my parents made me something was added to my genetic code.

MLIA. I always knew I was different– and now I know why.

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