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On Race And How it Should Not Separate Us

maianishikawa29 — Wed, 27 Oct 2010 01:13:01 +0000

Well I was at school a couple days ago, and I did something really unlike me, just for the heck of it- so that I could see from a normal teenagers perspective. I looked at people by race. And I have to say, I’m really astounded! I know it might not be so in many schools, but I see that in a town like mine, everyone is sitting with everyone, and doing everything. It was almost like it didn’t matter, aside from a few small groups of blacks and asians. (And about that, I really think it’s the silliest thing to call someone a black person, as if that’s the thing that distinguishes them. I mean its apperance I suppose, but why couldn’t we call someone by something like ‘the buisnessman, or ‘the one with the silly smile.’ Asian is a little better, it tells where they come from, but even that is weird because most asians at my school at least and in most schools were born here.. Anyways…)

Then I realized that the places in which the schools are more seperated by race are the places that are less open minded and accepting of all cultures. I know this might seem like a ‘no duh’ to a lot of people but it wasn’t for me because I’ve never thought of a person by race until my asian flashback. And so I thought, maybe to make things more accepting around the world, what needs to happen is for first of all, more people to move out of their comfort zone and go where there aren’t many of their race and start bridging the gap by finding things in common and secondly, to stop talking about and implying racist things, or even just the idea that race makes people different. (ex: oh, he’s so street smart, he’s so black.) If we keep talking about how racism is bad, never say things like that, never judge people, it will teach people that in this world, there are people that do that and think that way and it will increace the chance of future generations being like we are, all seperated and stuff. If we never talked about it being bad and never did it, wouldn’t our kids just follow along on the right path?

I really don’t know for sure, nor I think does anyone, but I really would like some input. Open discussion anyone?

The Gifted Student

maianishikawa29 — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 02:56:16 +0000

I started school again this year in hopes of learning something. I signed up for physics mechanics so that way my mind could just maybe be fed something of substance. I looked at the sylabus. It was identical to the one we had last year in science class.

I am tired.

I am tired of not being fed the knowledge and understanding my heart and mind hungers for more than anything else in this world. Of learning things over and over again like an endless wheel of homework that most seem to be blind to. I am tired of watching those who cannot remember something as simple as a plot structure step over me and get recognized for how smart they are, how hard they try, and how far they will go in the world. I am tired of reaching and reaching and having no one to lift me up to my highest potential- just waiting here for something, anything worth living for. If I weren’t me, given the iron will I have, I’d be dead by now and happy about it. “Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds.”

Being smart is bad– for now.

The schools of today are designed to hold everyone down so that the people that are less than half the IQ of people like me can move at their own pace and not be imbarassed. Those who do not try are given money through taxes and helpers so the work can be done for them. If you wanted to, I bet you could get away with not trying at all until you turned 18. Maybe even further. And what of the ones who have the potential to cure cancer, save the economy, and stop global warming? They are treated like they don’t exist. After they graduate we will most likely end up alone with few friends to relate to, messed up, seeking therapy. What happened to ‘all people deserve to be treated equal?”

Not to say I don’t appreciate the need for special ed programs, intelect might not mean everything in the work force, but it does count for a lot in this society. And it causes me endless frustration to know that people like me all over the world are being tied down from our dreams of making the world better by people that don’t try, and if they do try can’t produce something of real long term value without assistance.

This has to stop. This is sick. Schools are sick!!! I don’t care if I’m young, as one of my dear friends once said: “We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.” Those that made this system are old, even dead. It is long past the time when we should be making a change. And if no one else is stepping up, then I have to be the one to do it. I can’t fight the system, I have to work with it, in the direction of change.

I have to stay positive. But I need help.

WTF

maianishikawa29 — Sat, 24 Apr 2010 18:20:23 +0000

An alien? Gaia’s half alien? I did remote viewing and yes her traits are very much surreal but an alien? Things have gone too far out of hand. This is supposed to be my teenage life here we’re talking about. I did not sign up for this. (HS: Technically, you did, Maya.) Shut up. I always wondered what it would be like to have a normal life, average grades, average school, average pourpose. I’d get a job as a social worker or something ordinary, not this crazy crap i have to deal with now.

I know I’m a teenager- teenagers are in a wierd place in their lives, hormones coursing through their body as they struggle to differenciate their beliefs with their parents. And the whole Who am I thing is a part of that. But I never meant it to go this far. I just wanted a simple answer, like everyone else. A ‘you are a humanitarian’ would be a nice reasuring thing to tell me i was on the right path. But this? Heck no! Is this what i get for looking all the way to the bottom of the well? Am I perhaps in a little too deep? Well that would make sence, except for the fact that i am seriously different. I tried so hard to assure myself we were all the same but I guess they meant everyone but me. Or not. i don’t know! God my life is like some kind of a sick joke!

Maya have you ever thought about maybe not believing everything you hear online?

Yeah well duh I think of that constantly but let’s not forget the fact that i can see energies, can tell a good intention from a bad- and if you still say i don’t then there’s more. Indigo chat is not some teenage thing. most peole there have children or are thinking of marriage at least. There are only a few teenagers. And the ones i really trust- they were on there too. And they believe her. Gaia that crazy woman, i thank my lucky stars i’m not her. she is in quite a bit of trouble!

I will never forget what she told me- the other thing. About what was to come. My god, It sounds some good, some bad, but so unreal. Is this really my life? Or have I gotten mixed in to some horrible web of lies and deception like a foolish child? She talked of my vision too- the one i had on the rainbow child. She said it before I did. and she knew more about it than i did so part of me does believe her. And its not like im an alien, just something got transfered into my DNA. that’s normal, right? She said not human but maybe I read too much into it. I don’t know what the heck I should believe about that. I think the best thing I can do right now is to be with my normal freinds, the ones that don’t have superpowers and shit, and pretend im completely normal- completely legit. It’s the end of my time for understanding anyways- i’ll save the rest of my spiritual growth for 2012.