Anyways, a day ago I decided I would check up on him. I asked anyone on Empath Chat if they had seen the hot shot and someone told me they hadn’t seen him in seven months. That was the amount of time it had been since I told him goodbye… The guy told me Netil left. The Earth. Apparantly he was done working with humans so he decided to take off. Forever.

Needless to say, I emediately freaked out. Hyperventilated a little, and tears came to my eyes. He had promised me he would be there for me until my job was done and then he would help me leave the world with him. He had told me he wanted to walk the earth flat, to see all there was to see. And he was gone. But the feeling in my heart was not of sadness. I was hyperventilating because I was excited. And my heart swelled because I was happy. I believe in reincarnation. A lot. And I know he has gone through many lives, way more than anyone on this planet has. And I thought of his energy, how beautiful and light and happy and LOVING it was, and I felt happy that he got to leave, to help more people, because he could do that, he could go as he wished.

I don’t know how he died. Even now Higher Self tells me he is still alive and well, but if he has departed from his Earth, I consider the promise off, and gladly wish him the best of luck on all he does in his next lifetimes.

I love the way I can feel the air lifting and all my troubles seem to go away, and everything is so much richer. I love watching the snow melt and feel like I’m shedding off a heap of heavy winter baggage. I love listening to the birds chirp. And above all, I love the feeling that this is MY time, this is the time that everything is going to be alright, life begins again, and I’ll be bigger and better than before…

March Blessings

The end I know it was short.

and to think that i’m jewish!

on that, a note to myself to convert.

DAMN RIGHT I told an indigo what to do!!! >:D

me: You are all a part of me.

Chris: As you are of us. I thought about you today.

me: Aww chris, you’re an angel. (this was on fb)

Chris: Wow, it really sounds like we’re flirting doesn’t it?

(To my Mommy) And then Gaia, my half-breed friend said… (her= uhhhh)

to my best friend: i’m through with you!!! oh and a word of advice, whach out for banana peels on the stairs tomorrow at lunch. Right. Over and out! (i march away)

jess explains to ben: Umm. she thinks you are the son of the lord.

Allright. I gotta go. Dark and hate bitc*es!

Pickup line: (singing) You showed me the light, now baby give me some love!

(in the indigo chat there was a troll that harassed me.) Hey Maya, wanna have sex?

(so i decided to scare him away.) Tantric? (He was like O_o)

To the loony bin with you ALL!!

Be quiet legume. you’re making the rainbow kid cry.

Looks like the walk in just walked in. Ohh!!

That’s about it for now. Tootles!

Now it’s just my personal opinion, but I think that part of the movement is sort of self contradictory. I mean, if we want to break silence, why are we joining them? Why don’t we make posters that say ‘It’s okay to come out of the closet’ or something like that instead? Why don’t we all go around kissing people of the same gender to make them feel more accepted? That would certainly get more attention than someone just sitting in the background while others go on with their daily lives. And about the staying in the background- I know I’m different- I personally don’t like to make a scene- but not saying ANYTHING for even half of the day is really hard for so many people. I know so many people are very supportive of gays and the like, but they’re not doing the staying silent thing. That doesn’t just not get the message through, it implies the opposite- that people don’t care!!!

One of my best friends is a Lesbian. She came out of the closet to me on this day two years ago. And my ‘would have been’ boyfriend was gay too. (It’s a long story but to make it short I have a habit of turning gay guys streight. I also have a habit of having psychic visions at the worst time possible. Bittersweet.) I thought, (after all those years of waiting for him) he told me he was gay. And screw visions- I don’t care if I am meant to get married to him and fold his laundry and drive his kids to soccer practice, i’m over him. All my tears had long since dried up. But still the least I could do was fight with every fiber of my being for gay rights– and for my lesbian friend too!

Either way, I was able to get somewhat of an indigo thing spreading. So here’s the play: Today in choir instead of talking with friends I simply walked over to the seats and looked no one in the eye. Then when the teacher ordered everyone to get together and begin vocal warmups I decided to not only keep my mouth shut, but I walked in front of the room and to the wall so that everyone could see. After a while of vocal warmups, my already over attentive teacher started getting really irritated. She stopped the entire class to tell me that she ‘knew it was Be Quiet Day or whatever, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t participate in class.” Everyone was looking at me so I continued my act- I crossed my arms and looked at her with angry stubborn eyes and she kept on going without me. Then after a little more vocals she got pissy and threatened me with a ‘Get with the group now or I am calling the office.’ I raised my eyebrows, determined to be as indigo rebel as I could and threatened respectfully (yes I know. I broke the silence, so everyone could hear) “Why don’t you let me call them for you?!” I heard gasps and snickers. ‘Score! Touchdown!’ The damage had been done. She looked at me and I read her thoughts through her eyes. She knew she couldn’t touch me. She thought of her feelings, then of her job. And just to make my point, lord bless her (lol) one of the girls in my class stood up. “Yeah you can’t make her. She can do what she wants.” So I got to sit there and be all indigo, thanks to blessed friendship! That’s the game! ^_^

Ahh… I love my job…

I am a part indigo part super psychic teenage girl. I have two natal charts and that’s okay because it’s possible. I have two because of a polarity issue. When i was incarnated into my human body there was an enormous transfer of energy that it couldn’t contain causing me to have siezures. I died and was brought back to life by an unknown force because my soul had obligations to fufill elsewhere in a higher dimension (the ninth). It had something to do with love. Everyone I recognise from a previous life is around my parents age or older because I was incarnated late to this life. In three years time I will either begin to or complete my transformation into one of the world’s few Rainbow Crystals, vibrating under all three rays at once. (That’s why I cannot see my own aura- it has all the colors in it and it pulsates which confuses my eyes at least for right now.) This means that not only do I have two identities according to the planets, but I have three jobs as well. I am to be a teacher, an artist, and a healer.

I know that much. What I don’t know is what I am here to do specifically from here on until just three years from now….

i have to make a refference because if any of you out there are like me and have special abilities or even if you are just plain interested, this chatroom is the place to talk about all of it and ask questions too. I remember i used to be so confused about who and what i was- way more than a typical teenager- and when i came there, i was greeted with open arms and smiley faces from people who were so much like me. now, i’m not saying everyone had the same thing going on, but if you had questions or problems or just needed to let it all out to some people who wouldn’t judge you, if you just came on once every coulple of days, you were soon to find someone who can answer your question and relate to a problem. the indigo chat is for all ages and its absolutely free. And i know many people are worried they’ll meet some creeper trying to stalk you online- in fact i was causious too- but honestly, they won’t even let you type the word god or crap into the box. The place is completely safe. i go on almost every day just to lol and i’ve never been asked wierd questions like ‘how old are you’ unless someone gives it offhand. the indigo chat turned me from someone so confused and strugling to find anything to believe into someone who truely knew they were NOT alone!

i met a lot of cool people on that chatroom.

A human angel

A woman who was incarnated from the 12th dimension

A girl who has strange markings on her hands and once went into a trance where her eyes turned bright ice blue

a person who remembers all of their past lives

two archangels/ gatekeepers

a monk who can make blue flame

a wicken woman who has seen fairies, gnomes, her wolf spirit guide, who had a deamon in her kids bedroom and remembers being burnt alive at the stake

and even a person who can read your energy down to the smallest detail within seconds of you coming online!

With these people I got something so many teenagers want desperately- a chance for people to really see who i am and accept me for it. I now know i’m not alone. And i know that even most of them don’t have as much that makes them different as i do. In fact a lot of them are just open minded and into new age stuff and have a lot of questions. but compared to what i used to feel, i wouldn’t trade the chatroom for any other website in the world. now i have people who i can really talk to, who can really get to know me and we can really connect without hiding our true selves. That’s all I needed.

So if you have any special talents that are related to that of starchildren, i strongly recommend you visit Indigo Chat!

Making connections with open minded normies is rewarding for me as long as I don’t get personal. It’s given me stability as if I was actually legit. And now that i know what being indigo actually means- I have a purpose- I can move forward because I have a self and goals.

I guess it’s kind of nice to be at peace with myself. I can accept the fact that it’s okay to be a teenager half the time, and talk to human angels, 12th level lightworkers who create the laws of physics and even this one boy who sees dead bodies and gets touched by invisible creatures called Greys in the night. That’s legit, right?

Eight was scary. It was big and it never seemed to end. Instead of just one color I saw a huge mural for that one- green and earthy tones (or sometimes black) on the bottom and white on the top. Later I found out that it symbolized the link between heaven and earth… or heaven and hell, positive and negetive. I didn’t get what nine was until a while later and now I’ll never undersetimate it.

I started getting into astrology because like numeology, i was a natural. I put all the zodiac signs in a circle one day and then I realised that was the circle of life so I thought of the afterlife and put another one on top to make an eight. And that’s when I found out what eight meant. I wondered about the connecting point that must represent pisces- i still do. But I realized that eight went on forever and ever like the sign infinity and I knew there must be another step- nine. And so I looked at nine and thought wow, the nine has a cirlce symbolizing the infitite cycle and then there is the line sticking out at the bottom. It meant that the nine progressed and drew out a linear conclusion from that incomprehendable huge eight’s cycle. what was that? I went to the internet. And I realized nine was the humanitarian and that was what the conclusion was. We are all human and we are all stuck on this step by step order together and it would never end. We were all part of this huge infinite picture together. And at that moment the number nine appeared like a razor sharp enough to cut through infinity and it shone bright with rainbow light. That genious number solved my problem and gave me a solid conclusion that had direction and purpose. And though the color Aqua is my personal identity and core, the rainbow is my lifes work.

And that is the temporary end of my infinite story. Though I wonder… after zero comes one- the sword.

Well I guess we gotta start somewhere- and that somewhere better be here! ^_^