Anyways, a day ago I decided I would check up on him. I asked anyone on Empath Chat if they had seen the hot shot and someone told me they hadn’t seen him in seven months. That was the amount of time it had been since I told him goodbye… The guy told me Netil left. The Earth. Apparantly he was done working with humans so he decided to take off. Forever.

Needless to say, I emediately freaked out. Hyperventilated a little, and tears came to my eyes. He had promised me he would be there for me until my job was done and then he would help me leave the world with him. He had told me he wanted to walk the earth flat, to see all there was to see. And he was gone. But the feeling in my heart was not of sadness. I was hyperventilating because I was excited. And my heart swelled because I was happy. I believe in reincarnation. A lot. And I know he has gone through many lives, way more than anyone on this planet has. And I thought of his energy, how beautiful and light and happy and LOVING it was, and I felt happy that he got to leave, to help more people, because he could do that, he could go as he wished.

I don’t know how he died. Even now Higher Self tells me he is still alive and well, but if he has departed from his Earth, I consider the promise off, and gladly wish him the best of luck on all he does in his next lifetimes.

I love the way I can feel the air lifting and all my troubles seem to go away, and everything is so much richer. I love watching the snow melt and feel like I’m shedding off a heap of heavy winter baggage. I love listening to the birds chirp. And above all, I love the feeling that this is MY time, this is the time that everything is going to be alright, life begins again, and I’ll be bigger and better than before…

March Blessings

The end I know it was short.

Well then, unless you have been hiding under a rock for the past few months, there has been an event in Egypt, and it has been spreading to the middle east. Thousands of people are in turmoil, many countries are in complete anarchy, and it seems as if this is only the beginning. And here in the U.S and all other witnessing countries, public opinion is split in half on what to do about everything. Seems like a real quagmire.

But I convince myself that everything will be alright with my visions, as I watch them one by one come to pass. I see and understand that our world is changing more than it ever has; in the hearts and minds of its own people. Even the physical earth is undergoing a transformation. And though such abrupt change causes strife, the hardships we are going through are there so that we can grow further in the future and be happy.

I believe it is our duty to carry out the vision. We are almost ready to start thinking globally, to meld our opinions and realities with those of others. There is so much strife because so few people are willing to try push understanding to the limits, and they refuse to see the other person’s point of view. We fail to realize that though the chaos is happening far away and we don’t personally know many people that are hurting, those who are are connected to us in so many ways. (Quick stat: it was predicted that since everything started happening, gas prices are predicted to be $5 a gallon THIS SUMMER.) If we have unity in mind and in heart, we can easily change the way things are in the middle east and stop the effects from hurting us so severely.

I truly believe the unity I saw is possible, and though I know it will be a lot of work and it might take some time to get used to it, we can and will live out the vision.

Thank You. Light and Love.

I will recall to you now the experience I had a year or so ago of a dream I had, a dream so vivid and certain that I look back at it and wonder if this is the dream and that was reality.

I was walking on water with a man with brown hair and white flowing robes. His energy was of a love so pure and strong I felt overwhelmingly feverish to stand next to him. This man was Jesus Christ.

The sky was pink and violet, the water perfectly crystal clear. We were discussing what was to come of the people on Earth. On the other side of me, he showed me in what was like a sort of holographic map of time the future of “his people.” I remember very little of what I saw, just city scapes and revolution of ideas, how they transformed everyone. He seemed intent on watching me learn of the future, but I don’t remember much. Even so, what I saw was not as important as what he told me.

I asked him what would become of his religion. I have always felt a connection to christianity, the age of Pisces, and it saddened me to know that the age was coming to an end. He told me*: “The age of Christ is dying, and a new one will be reborn. My child, you have to let me go.” I told him it was bittersweet to let go of his ideas, the faith, the love. But he told me i should feel joy. For a new teacher would come, this time a woman.

(For those of you who do not read many of my posts, this thing he said here led me to my greatest vision, who’s link is HERE. http://maianishikawa29.wordpress.com/2010/01/02/2012-the-end-is-only-a-new-begining/

I asked how he could let us go, how this woman could ever replace him, what would she bring. He told me: he would always love the human race more than I could comprehend. But his time was up, his job was done, and there was nothing more for him to give, as we have already taken it, used it as a tree uses water of a stream, and can go no further with his laws. God has sent a new leader, one who will guide the humans with a lighter hold, they have to have more freedom now, we have matured to the point where we can make our own decisions. He told me that religion, faith, is growing outdated, that we are going from belief to knowledge, and though it will live on, organized religion is doing much harm. We are fighting over what we are taught to believe as a small unit, and we need divine help to see past blind faith into an age where we respect and cherish differences rather than similarities because in this age we realize we are all the same on the inside. I am sure most of you already know this belief in theory by now.

Then I said something about his laws, what it was exactly I can’t remember. But what he answered was something wise, practical, and I remember it to this day as one of my favorite quotes. “Laws are rules that keep things in place until they are ready to be broken.” And it was time to break the rules. His laws were not absolute! In fact, they were designed to be stepping stones we has a race had to complete to raise the evolution. And the next legendary teacher’s rules would not be absolute either! The absolute law we discussed was change in laws itself.

I do not remember how the rest of the conversation went, only that he called me ‘My child’ a lot. He left in a cloak of light energy, light all around him, floating up to his father.

That is the vision, all that I can remember. I put a * on the parts that were not the exact words, but that were the main ideas and parts of what he said. Again, I realize this topic will prove to be widely contravercial, especially to athiests (who the new legend will have a loving talk with) but I felt I should write it, to see what anyone has to say.

Love to all, Maia

and to think that i’m jewish!

on that, a note to myself to convert.

Then I realized that the places in which the schools are more seperated by race are the places that are less open minded and accepting of all cultures. I know this might seem like a ‘no duh’ to a lot of people but it wasn’t for me because I’ve never thought of a person by race until my asian flashback. And so I thought, maybe to make things more accepting around the world, what needs to happen is for first of all, more people to move out of their comfort zone and go where there aren’t many of their race and start bridging the gap by finding things in common and secondly, to stop talking about and implying racist things, or even just the idea that race makes people different. (ex: oh, he’s so street smart, he’s so black.) If we keep talking about how racism is bad, never say things like that, never judge people, it will teach people that in this world, there are people that do that and think that way and it will increace the chance of future generations being like we are, all seperated and stuff. If we never talked about it being bad and never did it, wouldn’t our kids just follow along on the right path?

I really don’t know for sure, nor I think does anyone, but I really would like some input. Open discussion anyone?

I am tired.

I am tired of not being fed the knowledge and understanding my heart and mind hungers for more than anything else in this world. Of learning things over and over again like an endless wheel of homework that most seem to be blind to. I am tired of watching those who cannot remember something as simple as a plot structure step over me and get recognized for how smart they are, how hard they try, and how far they will go in the world. I am tired of reaching and reaching and having no one to lift me up to my highest potential- just waiting here for something, anything worth living for. If I weren’t me, given the iron will I have, I’d be dead by now and happy about it. “Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds.”

Being smart is bad– for now.

The schools of today are designed to hold everyone down so that the people that are less than half the IQ of people like me can move at their own pace and not be imbarassed. Those who do not try are given money through taxes and helpers so the work can be done for them. If you wanted to, I bet you could get away with not trying at all until you turned 18. Maybe even further. And what of the ones who have the potential to cure cancer, save the economy, and stop global warming? They are treated like they don’t exist. After they graduate we will most likely end up alone with few friends to relate to, messed up, seeking therapy. What happened to ‘all people deserve to be treated equal?”

Not to say I don’t appreciate the need for special ed programs, intelect might not mean everything in the work force, but it does count for a lot in this society. And it causes me endless frustration to know that people like me all over the world are being tied down from our dreams of making the world better by people that don’t try, and if they do try can’t produce something of real long term value without assistance.

This has to stop. This is sick. Schools are sick!!! I don’t care if I’m young, as one of my dear friends once said: “We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.” Those that made this system are old, even dead. It is long past the time when we should be making a change. And if no one else is stepping up, then I have to be the one to do it. I can’t fight the system, I have to work with it, in the direction of change.

I have to stay positive. But I need help.

DAMN RIGHT I told an indigo what to do!!! >:D

me: You are all a part of me.

Chris: As you are of us. I thought about you today.

me: Aww chris, you’re an angel. (this was on fb)

Chris: Wow, it really sounds like we’re flirting doesn’t it?

(To my Mommy) And then Gaia, my half-breed friend said… (her= uhhhh)

to my best friend: i’m through with you!!! oh and a word of advice, whach out for banana peels on the stairs tomorrow at lunch. Right. Over and out! (i march away)

jess explains to ben: Umm. she thinks you are the son of the lord.

Allright. I gotta go. Dark and hate bitc*es!

Pickup line: (singing) You showed me the light, now baby give me some love!

(in the indigo chat there was a troll that harassed me.) Hey Maya, wanna have sex?

(so i decided to scare him away.) Tantric? (He was like O_o)

To the loony bin with you ALL!!

Be quiet legume. you’re making the rainbow kid cry.

Looks like the walk in just walked in. Ohh!!

That’s about it for now. Tootles!

I know I’m a teenager- teenagers are in a wierd place in their lives, hormones coursing through their body as they struggle to differenciate their beliefs with their parents. And the whole Who am I thing is a part of that. But I never meant it to go this far. I just wanted a simple answer, like everyone else. A ‘you are a humanitarian’ would be a nice reasuring thing to tell me i was on the right path. But this? Heck no! Is this what i get for looking all the way to the bottom of the well? Am I perhaps in a little too deep? Well that would make sence, except for the fact that i am seriously different. I tried so hard to assure myself we were all the same but I guess they meant everyone but me. Or not. i don’t know! God my life is like some kind of a sick joke!

Maya have you ever thought about maybe not believing everything you hear online?

Yeah well duh I think of that constantly but let’s not forget the fact that i can see energies, can tell a good intention from a bad- and if you still say i don’t then there’s more. Indigo chat is not some teenage thing. most peole there have children or are thinking of marriage at least. There are only a few teenagers. And the ones i really trust- they were on there too. And they believe her. Gaia that crazy woman, i thank my lucky stars i’m not her. she is in quite a bit of trouble!

I will never forget what she told me- the other thing. About what was to come. My god, It sounds some good, some bad, but so unreal. Is this really my life? Or have I gotten mixed in to some horrible web of lies and deception like a foolish child? She talked of my vision too- the one i had on the rainbow child. She said it before I did. and she knew more about it than i did so part of me does believe her. And its not like im an alien, just something got transfered into my DNA. that’s normal, right? She said not human but maybe I read too much into it. I don’t know what the heck I should believe about that. I think the best thing I can do right now is to be with my normal freinds, the ones that don’t have superpowers and shit, and pretend im completely normal- completely legit. It’s the end of my time for understanding anyways- i’ll save the rest of my spiritual growth for 2012.

MLIA. People think Im crazy for saying the things I do. Only when I show them what I can do they tell me I am from another planet.

MLIA. This year I have found out I fit into the reverred lable of Star Child- I am an indigo and I am evolving into a rainbow crystal. I found out my soul is from the 9th dimension and I have come here to carry out my duty.

MLIA. I have made friends with a human angel, a wicken, two vampires and so much more. I guess when people say they have freinds in high places I know what they’re talking about.

MLIA. When I met Netil, a boy who can see the 12th dimensional frequency and a master of the brain and DNA, he  told me that having two natal charts was simply a polarity issue, he showed me a technique using the most powerful secret knowledge known to humankind. Though it revealed to me my path in life, my angel reached out to me, (and activated secrets in my DNA so that when I walked by all electrical devices went out,) it did nothing to help my polarity. I told him even my rising sign was wrong- physically impossible. Last night, I found out why.

MLIA. Last night I met a woman named Gaia on  the indigo chat. I could tell from the first second her energy was different. I asked her what she could do but she did not answer. So I pm’d her and finnally she told me what she was.

MLIA. The woman i was talking to was the most paranormal person on the chat. Her differences were more… promminent than any other. She told me she was going to make me vibrate and did so with my consent. It was to protect me in space-time. She told me she was in hiding- it was her choice.

MLIA. Gaia is a hybrid. Her abilities are beyond the genetic code. Her parents are one from here, the other an outsider. She told me she had ignored me at first because i was not like the others. She would talk to me in private. I told her about my polarity and asked her what she meant by different. And this is what she told me:

MLIA. My rising sign was not wrong due to a polarity disorder. It could not be fixed because I was perfect. The reason why I have a cancer rising is because I am not physically human. When my parents made me something was added to my genetic code.

MLIA. I always knew I was different– and now I know why.

(comments please?)